It’s never a good day when you are scheduled for the next 24 hours and people are asking you if you worked last night.
Actually getting a few minutes for lunch which is a rare/lovely treat. I am now on day 2 of being back on MyFitnessPal (Midwife72 on there) and I am doing my best to stick to it. Today is hard because I am on a 24 hour shift and that’s a lot of hours for 1210 calories. I don’t even have a chance to go to the gym so I can exercise and get more calories to eat. I have 569 calories left until tomorrow morning. I shouldn’t have had the brownie that the PA made for us…it was small and delicious and it was actually speaking to me. I have issues.
On a serious note, speaking about those food issues, because of my accidental post to FB about my weight the other day, an old friend contacted me and we had a great conversation. When I met him, we were about 13 and he was morbidly obese. He then started losing weight and became GORGEOUS! He had Joey Lawrence hair (appropriate for the 80s) and such a beautiful face. He couldn’t stop losing weight and ended up being hospitalized for anorexia. The only guy that I have ever known who was anorexic. He got himself to a healthy weight and has been an active member of Overeaters Anonymous for 22 years. He still goes twice a week. I’m thinking about going to a meeting. I downloaded their book last night and I identified with a lot in the first few pages I read. It’s clear I need support in a lot of different areas of my life and I have tried therapy and it is not for me. Maybe this is. It won’t hurt. If anyone goes and would be willing to share their experience with me could you message me?
I am a huge believer in support for others…but, I’m very much an “I can handle it on my own” person. The thought that I can’t pisses me off. If I actually go through with this, it’ll be kind of big for me.